Thank God it's Christmas.

Heyhoo fellas, it's Christmas and Happy Christmas to all of you who celebrate! It's clear that everyone was having a good time. They posted it on their facebook, twitter, blackberry timeline and etc. Well.. I'm happy for y'all but some people out there are just not as lucky as most of you. My friend, Sharon for example, she had to accompany her ill mom at the hospital and staying the night for Christmas eve while everyone else were spending their time by having dinner, parties, and gathered with all their relatives. Even some were spent it in Paris and New York which got me sooo envy..

My point is, everyday is Christmas day. As long as you have heart filled with love, your life will always be meaningful and full of joy and love to be shared with everyone who needs and that's what Christmas meant to me. It doesn't have to be celebrated with parties and having fun. It's about your heart. Your heart that give thanks for Christmas meaning itself and applied it by share with others, especially people you love. And so this is Christmas and what have you done?

Some cute things were also happened though. Wrong spelled or they did it on purpose. Haha well.. i'm not judging but it's in my blood, i'm a perfectionist in some ways and don't like any small mistake or placed wrongly. I don't think it's small mistake though. I mean.. You have been through Christmas for more than 20 years, how could you spell it wrong this time? DUH

Well i'm not here to give speech and advices like elders do. I'm here because it's Christmas and i wish you all much much happiness and love filled in your life from deep deep inside my heart! I never pray for myself only and that's what i always pray for all of us to have everyday. May God bless us all! And i present you a song that i fell for at once..

I will survive (Hopefully)

Ah.. there's a lot of movie list i gotta catch. And Les miserables is on my number one! Can't wait and i must watch it for sure. And i'm gonna review some that i already watched. Don't get bored ;)

Silent Hill Revelation.

Boo..! Still amazed for the first one. Poor people who didn't watch the first one, they won't get for this sequel, or maybe hard to get. The main character, Heather Mason, is completely a copy from its game version, though not the same happened for its story line. I am a fan of Silent Hill, the movie and the game. Though i never and can't play horror games haha it's always Yenti who played it. It is a world where i don't wanna come into most. I'd rather be in Resident Evil's world than this one. This sequel is far from scary. Not even close. And i think the ending is too happy for Silent Hill's standard. So yeah.. i still vote for the first one.

5cm.

Oh my God! This movie is too freaking entertaining, laughable, inspiring and beautiful to be an Indonesian movie. Oh my God! Yes! I seldom watch Indonesian movie and i must say this one is a must watch for y'all! Very recommended! The jokes is very casual, refreshing and common among youth nowadays. The romance is okay, not bold though a lil' bit dirty at the beginning so the kids can also enjoy this movie. Thumbs up! I am proud to live in Indonesia and to be an Indonesian! And i love Zafran's quote, "Cinta bukanlah cinta jika tidak diungkapkan". Though it takes two hours but i guarantee you won't be bored along the movie. I suppose this movie should be released on our independence day and not christmas lol..

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Okay it's near Christmas and.. time for me to get some presents for people i love. It's fun though i failed to get myself mine, my lovely, delicious and precious Caramel praline cheese cake Baskin Robin ice cream flavor, the only thing that accompany me nowadays when i'm alone at home. Baby where are you? Why are you so hard to get? I'm craving for you. Sigh.. It's gonna be hollow days without it. Haha.. I'm too exaggerate here i guess. Well maybe it's not my destiny to have you now and probably it's my faith to not have you for the sake of my diet lol.

And it's good to hear that Christmas songs on my playlist are played everywhere, any Mall and hangout places. They are Billy Gilman's, Charlotte Church's, Michael Buble's, Mariah Carey's, and Josh Groban's. Well i must say they have a nice taste on this one. The bad news is they always got me singing when hearing it even in the rest room haha.. can't help.

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Recent fave songs

1. Terjebak nostalgia - Raisa

2. Said i loved you but i lied - Michael Bolton

3. Turn up the love - Far East Movement

Recent wishlist
1. Winter leather glove

2. Electric blue blazer

3. Be skinny!

4. Maxi summer beach dress
5. Black paper sheets book 

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Betapa malangnya dirimu

Dikala engkau datang, tiada yang menyambutmu

Tiada yang menantikan kehadiranmu

Dan tiada pula yang mengharapkan kedatanganmu

Betapa malangnya dirimu

Mereka tidak sungkan untuk menghujatmu

Terlalu keji mereka menghinamu

Dan terlampau pedih mengingat semua itu mereka tujukan hanya kepadamu

Betapa malangnya dirimu

Mereka tak sadari betapa indahnya dirimu

Begitu elok rupa bumi saat engkau datang

Dan tak terhingga guna kedatanganmu terhadap mereka dan bumi yang mereka pijak

Betapa malangnya dirimu

Seharusnya mereka dapat menari diatas bumi saat kau membasahinya

Melukiskan indahnya kedatanganmu atas mereka

Dan bersyukur atas rahmatNya karena memperolehmu dikala yang lain haus akan kedatanganmu

Oh hujan, betapa malangnya dirimu - eM

Christmas ain't come this early.

Oke.. Ga berani liat timbangan. Ga berani nimbang juga. Diet udah terbelengkalai. Makan udah ga pake mikir-mikir lagi. Yang biasa ga pernah makan nasi jadi makan nasi terus. Dijejelin mie terus juga tiap breakfast. Ga akan heran kalau nimbang naek beberapa kilo ARGHH Hiks.. abis yang dipikirin cuma satu. Yang jadi tanggung jawab tuh ada 22 orang, kalau gue sakit gara-gara diet dan masuk angin karna dingin gimana jadinya mereka (alibi aja sih sebenernya). And i got bruises everywhere, mostly on my feet.

Sempet drop memang.. Mentally.. Entah napa.. Pas lagi nyanyi Rudolph the red nose reindeer sendirian, nungguin tamu, bengong mandang langit kosong ga jelas.. Aneh. Pas di lobby Kaitian juga, diputerin instrumen Have yourself a merry little christmas sama saxophone nya The Christmas song. Hadeh hadeh.. Langsung buru-buru naik ke kamar sebelum mewek di hadapan banyak orang haha.. Epek belom ke gereja kayaknya. Lucunya tiap kali humming selalu lagu Jingle bell rock. Dan saking "skip" nya sampai baru pertama kali seumur idup ini, sabun dipakai jadi sampo and now my scalp is itchy as hell!

Dan siapa sih inventor nya firework?? bisa cek google padahal Baru sadar loh, ternyata cantik banget.. dan menghanyutkan.. Tersadar setelah liat firework dari kamar hotel di New Fu An, Yangshuo, ada kali ya 45 menit itu kembang api ga abis-abis. Saking lama nya ga kelar-kelar akhirnya gue tinggal mandi. Tapi lucu.. Baru kali ini liat kembang api nya ada yang hello kitty, mickey mouse, bunga and heart shape gitu and many more. Ditemani indah nya langit malam yang temaram dan musik dari tipi, romantisnya..

Ga lupa bersyukur. Tiap kali selalu dapat tamu yang bae-bae, manis-manis, hangat-hangat, udah kayak keluarga sendiri. Dianggap anak sama semuanya haha.. Dan walaupun sudah berulang kali nonton Liu San Jie, tetep.. ga akan pernah ga amaze tiap kali nonton. Bener deh, yang bilang itu show ga bagus sih ga punya sense of art ya. Emang sih awal nya agak gak jelas dan bosenin tapi klimaks nya bakal bikin kita terpesona.. Buat ci Yuni, keep strong and healthy ya. I feel pity for you from deep inside my heart. May God bless you and your family :)

Believe not to the Mayans.

I never complained when i'm sick.

I know it's not good to feel sick but there's always something positive i can reap from my problems (that's the only way i'm surviving).

And from sickness, i can make my diet even better.

It's amazing how sickness can make a big difference to me.

I was served a bowl of noddle and there..

I'm not tempted or even want to touch it at all.

AMAZING

For a noddle's lover like me can be like that.

I never mind whenever i got sick but..

When it comes to duty call, it's different ya.

No one wants to work when sick.

And sick when you're living alone, it feels kinda fucked up (for a fragile heart like me).

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Maybe i am the type that not good at lying or hiding problems.

It's not that i'm not trying hard to hide it but.. maybe i'm just not that good at faking a smile or pretend everything was ok.

:')

Dui bu qi da jia.

For realizing that something went wrong with me and made you all feel my worries.

Am i that easy to read?

Too predictable?

*sigh

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It's a nice date, December 20th, 2012. People talking about doomsday everywhere in the social media.

I think people who believe in that prevision were only afraid of it.

Probably they're not ready yet or willing to let that happen.

I read some articles about people who prepared a bunker, a plane to prevent it.

Pity fools..

I think instead of doomsday, it's a good date for weddings or any anniversary event.

Haha..

Don't you guys agree?

Besides, if it's really gonna be doomsday, nothing we all human can do to prevent it to happen.

And yes, though i'm not afraid of it but i hope.. hope that it'll still a long time coming.

I haven't make my mom happy,

wanna see my sis and Tephi got married,

see my mom has her first grandchild,

wanna see what happen to my best friend's love story with that married guy haha.. (kepo ya?)

Nah, i don't think i'm kepo. I just care for my besties :)

And i haven't made my dreams come true (۳ `Д ´)۳

So yeah..

Dear doomsday..

Please don't come right away.

A love so great it knows no boundaries...

Don't laugh for what i'm gonna post right now. Since the almighty king of Bollywood is coming to town, i'm gonna preview some of his popular movies. I have to say that SRK is good at picking up movie to role. None of his movies were sucks (as far as i know).

Most of you would have been considered Bollywood movies as a joke. It's true that sometimes all the dances and singing kinda makes us tired and sick of all the drama and romances. But i love them (especially if there's Hritikh Roshan in it). Most of them have good stories and plot. What i love about Bollywood movie is that besides the good musics, they also take a lot of great scenery and views in it.

Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna (2006)

This movie is.. Tragic. It's pathetic to see how human's destiny were being played by God. How they turned up to be in love while they already married and have a family of their own. Yeah this is a good movie for married couple or.. getting married. I ain't spoil much and fyi, this movie was a hit, even beat the famous Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham. I love this song very much btw (and New York of course).

Veer Zaara (2004)
This is one of SRK's movie i love. Mostly because the main actress is Preity Zinta. From all Bollywood's actresses, i love her the most (the second comes Kareena Kapoor). This movie is.. i don't know.. Should i call it tragic, ridiculous or stupid. This movie is about different country lovers, a Pakistani and an Indian. The movie teaches us to not see differences between people but to see them as equal. And this is a great poem Veer wrote that made me shed tears..

I, Prisoner No. 786, look through the bars of my cell 

I see days, months, years change to eons,
From the soil of this land I can smell my Bauji's fields
The burning sun reminds me of my Maati's cool buttermilk
The rains come with the swings of many seasons
 The winter fills me with the warmth of the Lodi fires
 They say this isn't your country, then why does it feel like mine?
 They say that I do not look like him, then why does he look like me?
 I, Prisoner No. 786, look through the bars of my cell
 I see an angel who has come down from heaven 
She calls herself Saamiya, and she calls me Veer
 She's a complete stranger, but she treats me as her family
 Hearing her truthful words, I feel alive once again
 Hearing her promises and vow, I want to feel life once more
They say she isn't related, then why does she fight the world for me?
 They say I'm not like her, then why does she look like me?
 I, Prisoner No. 786, look through the bars of my cell
I see my Zaara wrapped in the colours of my village
 In making my dreams come true, she has forgotten her own
 In serving my people, she has left behind her own
Now I want to fill her heart with joy
 I feel I could live another lifetime for her
 They say my country is not hers, then why does she stay in my home?
They say I'm not like her, then why does she look like me?
 I, Prisoner No. 786, look through the bars of my cell...

Ashoka (2001)
Ah.. Too easy to describe this movie, one word.. Sexy. Kareena Kapoor (her make up, her gesture, her tattoo, her body, her expressions aaahh she's perfect!), the scenery, the settings, the songs, the dances, the wardrobe.. This movie is very artistic. The story is so much alike with Romeo and Juliet, heir from feuding kingdoms. They didn't end up suicide but.. teehee i'm not gonna spoil more.

Haha.. So yes.. Bollywood is full of drama, love and tragedy. But the film maker surely know how to make the movies beautiful. They showed us the beauty of their country India, the panoramic, the culture, etc. Nowadays Bollywood movies are maturer and increasingly recognized by international, even Hollywood. Let's see.. there are Slumdog Millionaire, My name is Khan, and 3 idiots. All of them teaches us good things. I think Indonesian film maker must learn much from them. Do you folks agree with me? :)

Sweet tongue eh..

Ah it's an old one actually but never mind.. I love the shops :)

Located at the heart of Jakarta and in a well-known Mall, this sweet cake shop hides very well at the corner of third floor. Bittersweet corner is a small joining cafe with an interior shop. Although it's small but the decor and the ambience it brings are nice. All of the cakes they sell are so mouth watering. (at least for me)

 

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Also located at the heart of Jakarta, Ninety nine were originated well-known not for its dessert but hey, if you guys haven't try any of them, you should! The vanilla ice cream is amazing and the dessert portion is quite big for a person (i didn't finish my own dessert). So yeah, with their lovely ambience and their unique and delicious menu, you must not skip the desserts.

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And voila! This is one of my favorite ice cream shop. Island creamery is located at Flavor Bliss Alam Sutera, Tangerang. It's a famous one and every weekend it's always full of ice cream's lovers (mostly kids). I love the mud pie! It's deathly delicious! The beverages are also good. The passion fruit tea is nice, you can taste the blend of tea and fruit in it, such a lovely combination for a refreshing drink. I didn't taste the chocolate lava cake (i'm not into chocolate) but my sis said it's nice, hot and cold blend at once. Too bad i didn't take a photo of its ambience, i can say it's a fun and cheerful one, probably were addressed to kids and youngsters.

Ready to taste a little piece of sweet heaven? ;)

Early Dec.

Recent fav songs :
1. As long as you love me - Justin Bieber
2. Good time - Owl city ft Carly Rae Jepsen
3. Love is you - Ten2five
4. Skyfall - Adele
5. Superbass - Nicky Minaj
6. I won't give up - Jason Mraz
7. Scream - Usher
8. Tonight i'm fucking you - Enrique Iglesias
9. Game of love - Michelle Branch ft Santana

Recent fav foods :
1. Fruits! (i'm on a diet)
2. Pork ramen with tamago! (forget the diet)

Recent sucks things :
1. Watched bad ending movies
2. Being called "Gisel" everytime
3. Had to deal with China's winter again

Used to be my lullabies..

1. Collin Raye - Counting Sheep (2000)

♫ Counting Sheep
♫ I'm Gonna Love You
♫ Blackbird
♫ A Mother And Father's Prayer
♫ When You Wish Upon A Star
♫ Cool Cat
♫ Too Ra Loo Ra Loo Ral (An Irish Lullaby)
♫ Hearts Are For When You Want To Love Someone
♫ The Dream Song
♫ When You Say Your Prayers
♫ Stay Awake

I can't recall whose cassette this is but i bet it's my aunt's. It's a country lullaby album for kids actually. A mother and father's prayer is a good one but personally i heart the When you wish upon a star. It is originally one of Pinocchio's soundtrack but Collin Raye's version is truthfully nice.

2. Charlotte Church - Voice of an Angel (1998) Charlotte Church (1999) Dream a dream (2000)

♫ Pie Jesu
♫ Panis Angelicus
♫ Ave Maria
♫ Dream a dream (featuring Billy Gilman)

♫ O come all ye faithful
♫ Little drummer boy
♫ First Noel
♫ Mary's boy child
♫ Ding dong Merrily on high
♫ Winter Wonderland
♫ Christmas Song
                                                        ♫ Hark the herald angels sing

I mixed up the track list of three albums of her. And yes, those three were also my aunt's, thanks to her deeply for introduced these kind of music to me and my sis. Maybe that's why me and my sis were sopranos too in the choir. Most of her songs are Catholic Church's and Christmas songs. Charlotte has a very beautiful voice since she was a kid. She's a soprano. She was very bright and famous at that time but as the time goes and she's growing up, all of 'em started to fade away. She's known with her issues.


3. Sarah Brightman - Time to say goodbye (1996) Love changes everything (2005)

♫ Time to say goodbye
♫ All i ask of you (Phantom soundtrack)
♫ Memory
♫ Symphony
♫ Any dream will do
♫ Think of me
♫ I don't know how to love Him
♫ Anything but lonely
♫ There is more to love
♫ Love changes everything
♫ The music of the night (Phantom soundtrack)




Who the hell doesn't know her?? If you don't, i could say that your scope of music is not big enough. She's a very well respected senior soprano. She had been duet with many famous tenor such as Andrea Bocelli, etc. Her most well known performance was Phantom of the Opera where she originated the role of Christine Daaé. Her voice is so typical. I could easily recognize hers. 


4. Enya - Paint the sky with stars (1997) A day without rain (2000)

♫ Only Time
♫ Only if
♫ May it be
♫ Pilgrim
♫ If i could be where you are
♫ Anywhere is
♫ Watermark
♫ Hope has a place
♫ China roses
♫ Evening falls
♫ Fallen embers
♫ On your shore



I must say that my auntie really has a great taste in music (or maybe some of you would call her taste "boring"). Maybe most of them influenced me and my sis. So that's why me and my sis like the same musics (though she's not that into upbeat). We all know the famous song of Enya "Only time". It was the soundtrack of a movie Sweet November and also May it be, the soundtrack of The lord of the rings. I still remember how my aunt Yanti singing "Anywhere is". Enya's songs are so soothing. I love it. Perfect.


So.. What's yours? :)

Mid Nov. (Here comes rainy days)

My recent favorite songs were quite much. One of them that made me drowning was "I love you" by Avril L. When i started to hear the song, it feels like the song were leading my imagination and feeling to a road trip, sitting on the passenger side of a convertible car, driving through hills, beach, flower field and other great scenery road, wind blows the hair, feeling the breeze with hands and started to sing along while occasionally looking to the driver which is the "you" mention in the song. Some part of the song we're pulling the car to check the machine out and stopping by at the gas station. Finally we reached to the main destination at night and that's the end of the song. Anyone got the same thought with me or am i good to be a music clip director? I haven't seen its official video clip myself.

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Soon it will be the end of November and i'll spend six months (probably more) alone.
Completely alone.
*sigh
Not even dare to watch any horror movie for a while.
And thinking about moving out.. really got me frustrated.
I have a lot of unuseful stuff that i love to keep!
Thinking that i might bring them all from room to room making me exhausted.

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Gosh it has been November already and soon it will be new year.
Feels just like yesterday.
I still remember last new year eve when i got sober..
I'm not ready yet.
Not ready for next year and..
A year passing by just like that.
Feels like an ice cream cone slipped from my hand.

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It has been raining a lot lately.
Yes.

Rainy days has come and.. Jakarta surely will go through flood and awful traffic jam. Everyone hates it. Some of my friends has already been an official hater of rain as they said in twitter. Well well.. It's a natural thing. When summer comes, people craving for rain and so the reverse apply. Me, myself for example, never like rainy days actually. It makes some difficulties to travel around the city, flood everywhere (funny, even inside the house i still get wet and no need to mention the traffic), dangerous when the road goes slippery, the mood it brings, the paranoid, the memories and so on. I only love it sometimes when i already bored to the summer and missing a little bit of rain drops and the smell of it. Just got to keep grateful and enjoy this cycle every year. *sigh

Evita (1996)

Err.. Yeah.. I love this movie. This musical movie.

I had been wanting to review about this movie for a long time since i last saw it again on O channel. And yes, as i said on my twitter earlier, it's been very nostalgic and beautifully memorable. I watched this for the first time when i was a kid at the cinema (I'm lucky that my parents had introduced me to movies and musics and showed me such a great one). With the main casts, Madonna as Evita, Jonathan Pryce as Juan Peron, and Antonio Banderas as Che. The movie is about the infamous real-life story of Eva "Evita" Duarte de Peron.

For those who don't know the hell is Evita Peron, she's an ugly duckling who turned out to be a swan. From Eva Duarte to Evita Peron. From a normal citizen to a First Lady, with her own "beauty" and "strong" way. What i love from this movie is that it has a lot of great soundtracks for a musical movie (I still had the soundtrack cassette though i'm not sure where it is now). Madonna did a great job of course as a singer and Antonio too, although i kinda don't get what's his part in the movie.

Everytime at the hairdressers

A poet doesn't always come.

Ketika senja tiba 

Cahaya hangatnya merata di seluruh bumi

Merasuk hingga ke sukmaku

Itulah saat dunia menjadi indah.

 A flower at the edge

 Look so beautiful with the sun shines on it

 Thy color, shape and beauty are infinite

No one knows what future might bring to it.

Dirimu indah

Indah bagai rembulan saat langit malam 

Menghanyutkan.. Membutakan.. 
dan hanya dirimu yang terlihat.

Don't you love cake?

Oh how i love musics..
How musics really dominant in my life.
Music has always been with me since i were a kid.
And how i love old songs.
I used to hate it though when i was a kid.
But now, it all feels.. memorable, yet drowning.

I love this version of Cake.

Strangers in the night exchanging glances
Wond'ring in the night what were the chances
We'd be sharing love before the night was through

Something in your eyes was so inviting
Something in you smile was so exciting
Something in my heart told me I must have you

Strangers in the night
Two lonely people, we were strangers in the night
Up to the moment when we said our first hello little did we know
Love was just a glance away, a warm embracing dance away

Ever since that night we've been together
Lovers at first sight, in love forever
It turned out so right for strangers in the night

I do love bazaar !

Since shopping is my drug, then i do love every single thing that associated with sale or such things. And this time, there's an event held in Jakarta's well known Mall, Grand Indonesia. So yeah.. Completely lost my sense and very inviting to brought them up to my closet. Men stuff also available. Random stuff also available from handy craft to hand made to fancy cute things. Also available banana cakes, mochi, cupcakes and jar cakes (this is new to me, too bad i didn't take any photos of it).

Unique batik shoes

Way to go GoGirl!

Women are very consuming. That's the only way they surviving.

When good music meets laugh out loud..

 Kau datang dan jantungku berdegub kencang~

Maafkan aku terbuai olehmu~

Cause you will tell me every morning~ Ooohh all right baby~

Lovely Raisa

Raisa's crowd

Restroom's queue

"PAKE LAGI!!" lol

Main show : Sexy performance

Indoor crowd

Good music, good food, good friend, great pizza *opps great weekend :D

If drugs were as good as this.

When I fall in love it will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love
In a restless world like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun

When I give my heart it will be completely
Or I'll never give my heart
And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you.

Happy 2 years of my blog's existence!

Umm.. Okay.. It's already October and.. Mum's birthday and she's not here. Mum and Apak's one year marriage anniversary but can't celebrate it. My girls' day out but postponed. Supposed to stay at Serpong but cancelled. And it's already beginning to rain here. Quite a relieve. Though I think it's gonna be a quite 'tough' month.

And uh.. Looking back to the first time i wrote a post on my blog, i really did maintain my blog til' now, despite the fact that it's only an absurd, bizarre and hazy diary or just a doodle of me. Since my blog's theme is a diary, so i didn't put any comment button anymore on it. Just like a real diary right? But i still excited to get any critics or suggestions or any question about it like you all always give. And sorry for my often late post that recently caused by my home's connection not in a good condition. But i'm gonna do my best to write everything that happen since i don't have a good brain to memorize it all. It's nice to take a look back to an old album or diary right :)

Mid Sept.

Bruce Wayne VS. Bruce Banner

Both superheroes, both magnificent but which one you like most?

One from DC comic, one from Marvel. One pure human, one superhuman. One a billionaire, one a scientist. Both had painful past about parents, both has good deeds. But to me, personally, i'd rather choose Hulk than Batman. Why? I think Hulk is more thoughtful and considering others than Batman. Unlike Wayne, Banner is more humble by riding a bike to work and he's living in inland as a doctor for poor people there. I know people are doing good by their own way but still ya, despite of living glamorously like Wayne, i prefer the life that Banner had. He would rather avoid a fight, although he'll get beaten up, just to make sure he don't get change into Hulk and no people is going to be injured by his uncontrollable side. I mean, even if without his Hulk side, Banner is still a hero himself. Well maybe Wayne still doing good by charity but i think it's all for his fame and pride. (Or maybe i judge him unfairly). And um, from all the cast of Hulk, i like Eric Bana the most, i think he's perfect for the cast. Edward Norton is too skinny i think and Mark Ruffalo is more look like a latin than a white guy ya. Strangely, most of superheroes had dark past among them and even weird, they all managed to be a good person, not a villain.

But still, from all black past superhero had, i think Wolverine had the most painful one. He's forced to forget all his past and his memories about his lover. His lover died before his very own eyes but he can't even recognize her or mourn for her or take a revenge for her, it's so tragic that he don't even know that he was once ever had a wonderful love.

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Photos always bring back memories

Kangen Phuket, kangen princess, kangen pantai, kangen pasir putih, kangen langit biru cerahnya, kangen badan berlumuran pasir semua ampe masuk ke kuku, kangen pake bikini, kangen aer biru bening asin nya yg menggoda itu, kangen rambut panjang, kangen kaki ramping, kangen maen aer, kangen gila2an, kangen nyanyi2 lagu the lazy song sama i just had sex sambil ketawa2, kangen ngegodain Ida sama berondong cute bangkok, kangen parno pas mati lampu di hotel, kangen makanan angetan sevel, kangen jajanan gorengan disana yg segudang yg macem2 yg bkin ga mungkin ga jajan, kangen pake baju seminim or senorak apapun ga bakal ada yg notice, kangen ngebut nya si abang tuk2, kangen ngintipin dalem nya club2 nakal, kangen hawa sejuk dingin2 empuk, kangen dipeluk, kangen minum susu coklat anget pas hawa dingin, kangen ranjang Hardrock Singapore, kangen poto2 pose2 ga jelas ngandelin kaca disitu, kangen kolam brenang nya, kangen jalan2 sendirian nyeker ngegalau ga jelas malem2 di pasir nya, kangen suasana natalnya, kangen semua toko2 coklat and candy warna-warni nya yg muterin lagu2 natal, kangen hiasan lampu warna warninya, kangen langit berbintang cantiknya, kangen dingin nya Nanning, kangen ngeluyuran malem2 di yangshuo sama gani n yani n irvan, kangen ngecengenin gani n yani n william, kangen bocah2 itu, kangen bawelnya om Pet, kangen supper mie gelas sama Shera di kamar, kangen liat badan bantet nya pake longjon doank, kangen oma opa semua yg di grup waktu itu, semuanya kliatan hangat karna faktor pake baju dingin smua yg tebel2, pengen melukin atu2, kangen muka waktu masih muda, masih mulus kenceng n bening, kangen senyum polos naif sekya diri ndiri.

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Movie brings back memories too

Yea yea.. It's a movie review. Resident evil 6 Retribution was okay, kinda feel like an adrenalin rush fling just like the 5th. I just hate that Chris and Claire Redfield didn't make their appearance but Leon, Ada and bad Jill did. First i hate the cast of Leon. As far as i remember, Leon doesn't have beard ya and so much charming in the game. Ada was perfect. And Jill.. I um.. Prefer the cast who played normal Jill at the 2nd. I remember Yenti used to show the game to me and Abe at her house. She once showed us the scene where Ada hurt and Leon helped her but then Abe started to call Ada "Bitchy" "Slut" and so on, it was kinda our joke when we were at that time. (Leon was our favorite man char btw) And i always love Michelle Rodriguez! She looks so tough and sexy and independent woman! Perfect. I love RE because it's so women rule the world movie haha.

Help!

Speaking of dreams, i've experienced nightmares quite much lately. One of it was happened couple days ago. I quite forgot the whole story of it but what i clearly remember is that it was about my mom and the situation was really frustating to me. Something was happened to me and my mom but i can't remember what happened. In my dream, i need someone to help us so desperately til' i woke up and realizing i just screamed "Help!" then i was like running out of my breath and stared helplessly at my room's ceiling.

It's been a long time since i had nightmares about my mom, remembering how much i did when i was a kid which i always ended up crying. It was always about my fear as if i'm gonna lose her. The dreams were always about me being left behind by my mom and she was 'stolen' by another guy and she had a new family.  From that experiences, i used to assumes that if i woke up crying over nightmares about someone, it means i love them much. I know the ratio of a kid having nightmares are much more than an adult.

As i grow older, my dreams are getting more real than before. Sometimes i'm afraid of my own dreams, afraid if i'm gonna stuck in one of it and can't even awake anymore. I even had the 'inception' thing once or twice. Fuck me right? I thought it only happen in movies. I don't think this is normal. No wonder if there are many artists that gone nuts because of their too creative and imaginative brain. I hate having my brain like this or maybe i'm just not grateful enough or too much movies i've seen. Maybe i only had two options with a brain like mine, nuts or suicide. Exaggerating of course

Like one of my nightmares that i had when i stayed at Serpong on Eid Mubarak holiday last August. Before the nightmare, i'm already got acute paranoid from an unknown voice i heard when i'm ready to sleep in my bed, i didn't even dare to move a finger! lebay This is a rare thing to me whom always think positive whenever hearing an unknown voice "Ah it must be the air conditioner" or "Probably just a lizard or cockroach" (yikes) then i didn't expect the paranoid would continue to my dream. The nightmare was so terrifying til' i tried to wake myself up by trying to pinch my hand and my cheek. It did work. It changed to another visual and situation which is more terrifying then i realized i haven't really wake up, it was just an inception. Then i pinch and punch myself harder and harder, i just wished to wake up and escaped from the nightmare! Then yes.. I did. And again, i stared horrifyingly across the room, my whole body was so tense and frozen, the fear still followed me. I remember it was about 5am when i woke up. I still asleep and tired, i felt very weak, needed a lot more time to rest but i'm too afraid to fell asleep again. So i just forced myself to open my eyes, turn on my song's playlist loudly, trying not to get asleep anymore. I even think i don't wanna sleep in that room anymore. But then i realized that the unknown voice i heard last night was only a voice of a plastic bag got blown by the AC. Then that night i slept well like a baby again.

Mimpi adalah kunci

Untuk kita menaklukkan dunia

Berlarilah tanpa lelah

Sampai engkau meraihnya

Dream a dream

And see through

Angel's eyes

A place where

We can fly away