Here I am, already in my final year and my final presentation (which went silky smooth) and in just a couple of weeks, I'll finally be free from this place, no strings attached. I especially express my gratitude to all prayer said for me, may God bless you all ^^
It was.. rollercoaster. I must say, one hella ride. I remember I was at my worst, lowest mind and self at the second semester. Other than that, nothing was ever difficult enough, though the thesis part at first felt so frustating when I don't understand the whole research method things.
Even the final presentation didn't make me nervous or scare at all. Butterflies in my stomach only at D-5 til D-3, then D-2 til D day I was totally fine, I'd rather say I'm excited (I just want it to get over soon). Probably because I already prepared everything so perfectly then I felt confidence to do it. Now I do believe that hard work will have great result (no cliche, for all this time I never did any preparation for presentation and went so-so). I'm proud of myself though, they say I got an A :) (though my thesis title sounds ridiculous for some people but it brought me to this happy day).
I'm glad throughout my time in college, I have met several great girls which turn out to be my comrade-in-arms. We're not always went with agreement but anyhow, we can overcome our disagreements at the end :) Anyway, without Erwin, I wouldn't know what to do, I'd be nowhere near my finishing thesis. I'd be so lost without him. Thank God I have him as my best friend who were always there when I need him. Sometimes it makes me wonder, have I been a good friend to him? I wish he'd always there for me as my bestie. I need him in my life, much.
I really wish I could continue my study and elevate my title. Now, I do love learning and enjoy studying process. I love studying in class. Even my dreams at night were pretty much sets in classes (much before college). Anyhow, it's so hard to get scholarships nowadays and too expensive for me to afford. So, I might as well work super hard saving money to study or keep it to buy a safe escape house. I wanna be a teacher (which I can work globally), and yet, I wanna be an influencing blogger or writer (so I can work at home or travel as much as I like), a social worker or a daycare staff (only to fulfill a Permanent Resident's skill requirement). Am I sound greedy? Is it even possible for me at this age?
