It's been so long.. since I last wrote my blog.. (ala Akon)
Loveliesssss..
Here I'm back with something randomly came up at night when I can't sleep. As usual.
Introvert
People who knows me, will definitely agree that I'm an introvert kind of person. I use to not share anything personal like my life plan, my thought, my relationship or anything I don't feel like sharing it to anyone. The reason might came from a lot of things.
First, I do have this kind of ginx or perception that if I tell my plans or wishes to anyone then it won't came true. Silly, indeed.
Second, I might feel not comfortable enough to tell those things to the person I'm talking to. Or more likely, I'm scared. Scared of the image they made in their mind about me. I use to say I don't care about what people think of me. Honestly, I'm a bit scared. Or simply, I don't think other people or that person is concern enough to hear my stories. You know, in the end, people only loves talking about themselves. There's no point of telling more about us that don't interest them.
Third, I don't trust them. You know I have a HUGEE trust issue, remember? I feel insecure of people knowing my deepest things and their opinion about it. I can't handle it sometimes. I'm afraid they will tell others about me which I think it's not for everyone to know. Even my mom, she will definitely tell others when I don't want others to know. That's why I'm not close to my mom and yeah, she thinks I'm an introvert child.
The point is.. I'm scared when I'm failed or things don't go the way I want, people will talk about me, about my failure, which I was so eagerly told them at first.
As a matter of fact, I do have several people I can share personal things with, but it requires more than seven years of friendship :D
I remember my sis ever said this to me once. "What's the point of blogging? what's the point of telling people what you thought or how you felt? Wouldn't it be uninteresting if people knows how you think or felt?"
Now I'm confused..
Loveliesssss..
Here I'm back with something randomly came up at night when I can't sleep. As usual.
Introvert
People who knows me, will definitely agree that I'm an introvert kind of person. I use to not share anything personal like my life plan, my thought, my relationship or anything I don't feel like sharing it to anyone. The reason might came from a lot of things.
First, I do have this kind of ginx or perception that if I tell my plans or wishes to anyone then it won't came true. Silly, indeed.
Second, I might feel not comfortable enough to tell those things to the person I'm talking to. Or more likely, I'm scared. Scared of the image they made in their mind about me. I use to say I don't care about what people think of me. Honestly, I'm a bit scared. Or simply, I don't think other people or that person is concern enough to hear my stories. You know, in the end, people only loves talking about themselves. There's no point of telling more about us that don't interest them.
Third, I don't trust them. You know I have a HUGEE trust issue, remember? I feel insecure of people knowing my deepest things and their opinion about it. I can't handle it sometimes. I'm afraid they will tell others about me which I think it's not for everyone to know. Even my mom, she will definitely tell others when I don't want others to know. That's why I'm not close to my mom and yeah, she thinks I'm an introvert child.
The point is.. I'm scared when I'm failed or things don't go the way I want, people will talk about me, about my failure, which I was so eagerly told them at first.
As a matter of fact, I do have several people I can share personal things with, but it requires more than seven years of friendship :D
I remember my sis ever said this to me once. "What's the point of blogging? what's the point of telling people what you thought or how you felt? Wouldn't it be uninteresting if people knows how you think or felt?"
Now I'm confused..
