A Journey Of Tinkerbell.

Duh..

Uda lama ga goblog, eh.. nge-blog.

Faktor males iyaa.. ga sempet iyaa..

Lom ada bahan iyaa..

Inet di hum kek ee jg iyaa..

Hwhw

Maap ga disensor.

Gue mo berbagi skilas tentang Famtrip gue ke RWS.

Kenapa Tinkerbell?

Coz i'm alone this time.

Juz like Tinkerbell without Peterpan (bukan Peterporn ya)

This is the 1st time i do boarding all alone.

Dianterin ama NYOKAP (nyokap n apak) aja cuma ampe lobby Airport.
Itupun turun dari mobil langsung ditinggalin gitu aja ama koper.

Padahal gue ngarep ada cipika cipiki n big hug di Boarding Gate,

En gue melambai ke mreka layaknya Miss Universe.

Oke stop dreaming.

Straight to the topic.

Day I : THE UNBEATABLE ME.

Gue baru tau ya ternyata SJ itu biangnya ngaret.

Ngaretnya ga kira2 lagi.

Alhasil gue mesti cari2 kegiatan sampe take off.

So pasti gue nyasar ke toko buku. This time Periplus.

Liat bagian novel koq keknya vampire lg ngetrend bgt ya.

Vampire Academy, Vampire Diaries, bla bla bla bla...

 

En ada novel trilogi yang keknya bakal difilm-in (sotoy)

Bosen liat vampire en love, 

mampir ke majalah design interior, en photography magz.

Uda slesai, uda ngiterin satu toko buku, 

Mpe ga au mo liat apa lagi tapi masih lama take off nya --"

Isenk2 liat passport tnyata pas staon lalu gue ke destinasi yg sama

Lunch Sriwijaya not bad la..

Stelah perjuangan berat en berkali2 salah turun di MRT, 

Akhirnya sampe jg di reception hotel yg banyak cogan nya.

Masuk ke kamar gue langsung amazed n said "kyaa" kek di komik2.

My room! All by my own!

Ngeliat bed na yg begitu empuk n msh perawan amat sangat menggugah selera gue buat lompat n terjun kesitu.

Tp ga bisa! Karna gue uda telat en mesti buru2 ganti baju buat inspection!

The most lonely part of story four

Hey this is my Favorite Photo from this trip!

Idihh bling-bling bgt deh Swarovski.

My Shopping paradise

Berbanggalah yg namanya Michael

Eh si bapa nyadar kamera aja dehh.

Narsis saat inspection

Mikirin apa kamu tung?

Sucks ya neh aer mancur, masih bagusan GI.

Uda pa Revian ce Lina ga usa brantem.

Hot chocolate milk free at casino.. msh enakan milo y

Cute design of Hardrock Hotel

Lamborgini kuning ow ow ow

Epek sepatu baru : Lecet, nyeker.

Ga ada antrian panjang kek di Indo ya.

M for My name? Indeed!

m&m kuning! love u!

Today's sadness :
1. Dibilang umur 25 ama Melly T.T            
2. Diperiksa 2x pas masuk casino (emang gue tampang kriminal yak?)
3. Nitemare : sumthing bout UFO


That's a wrap for day I, Day II on progress :D


Show me the meaning of being lonely -MCD

Selamat pagi Abah.

Kangen keluarga Cemara.

Tapi..
Mami Diana = sibuk pacaran
Papi Hendra = sibuk kuliah
Ko Ahau = sibuk kerja

Koq kesannya cuma gue yang nganggur.com?
wkwk


Miss our movies and appetite -MCD

Je M'appelle Mery.

Eh..
Gue heran ye.
Kenapa semua orang sekarang manggil gue MEI?

Helloo..
I still love my real name laaa.
Mulai dari Ewin, Ka dew, Ajong, Ka yan sampe anak PKL ƪ(‾ε‾")ʃ
Smua bermula dari Mr. Ed.
Tapi cuma Koboy yang manggil gue "Swan, swan"
Hwhw..
I really like it. (ngarep jadi Mery Swan)
Sampe si Bubur yang tiba2 manggil gue MEI juga.
Janggal rasa e. Suer.

Kalo kayak Dju2, Ko Anton n Dennis dll kan emang wajar.
Karna mreka emang kenal gue dengan nama itu.
Tapi kalo yang kenal gue dengan nama Mery.
So be it laa.
Don't change change it to anything laa.
Kalo dimana mana liat nama gue meichandesu or mei something .
Oh come on..
It's just a nickname. Username.
Istilah artis nya "nama beken".

Mei is only used for certain people only laa.
Except i permitted you to call me that way.
Pengecualian juga buat yang close friends.
Like Oneng en ko Bob.
I like the way they call me "Me".
Still..
Somehow..
I miss the way people call me "Mery"
Mery = Merry = suka cita, senang, gembira, riang


Are we cool 'eh? -MCD

From Bem.

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, still I miss you somehow

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

From the bottom of my broken heart - Britney Spears

Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?

It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break

Saw you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah 

Better that we break - Maroon 5

The rain enters my eyes as I think of you

And it replaces the tears I have been holding in

I loved you ‘til madness and I was so very happy

The love memories given to me send you away

Goodbye my love love love

Take care my love love love

Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body

Now good bye good bye good bye

Leave me and please be happy

One step, one step, you’re going farther away

Silently I fill up a glass of alcohol

As I hardly hold it with my hands, i let out a sigh

I drink one glass

As I think of you

I also swallow the tears I have been holding in

Sarang sarang sarang - Ft Island

He's out of my life
He's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
He's out of my life

It's out of my hands
It's out of my hands
To think for two years he was here
Now the way that It stands
He's out of my hands

So I've learned that love's Not Possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now I've learned that love needs expression
But I learned too late

He's out of my life
He's out of my life
Damned Indecision and cursed pride
And it cuts like a knife
He's out of my life

 

She's out of my life -Josh Groban

Dedicated to my Red Knight about 4 months ago -MCD 

Mid Nov.

part I

I can't barely wait for my next portfolio!

This head is already full with kewl photographs!

Whether using the machine gun or the handgun.

I'm ready to make my shot!

So just be ready when the blood is gonna spoiled.

Part II

Gue akuin gue emang tomboy.

Yang menyanggah berarti blom kenal gue bener.

En saking tomboynya..

Gue ampe disuru "ACT LIKE A WOMAN" ama si Mr. Ed!

Ga nyangka..

ternyata selama ini tomboy gue menganggu dia ya.

LOL

Eh.. tomboy or childish nya ya?

Part III

It's ashamed to be admit.

I can't even ever imagine.

That i'm gonna be the loser this time.

Yea i'm lose.

Totally am the loser.

In this heart game.

Game of stealing.

U can smile. U can laugh.

U did it. U won this game.
U make my world upside down.

U'll walk away with pride.

I never have luck when it comes to the twins.

Even fell for the same hole twice.

Maybe it's my karm for my several winnings.

Lovefool. Fool me. Fool again.

Part IV

Recent favourite songs.

1. The christmas song - Charlotte Church

2. Have yourself a merry little christmas - Billy Gilman

3. You don't have to say you love me - Dusty Springfield

4. I have nothing - Whitney Houston

5. Yuki no hana - Mika Nakashima

6. I'll be home for christmas - Martina Mcbride

7. Hero - Mariah Carey

Recent favourite foods.

1. Choclair Cadbury

2. Sop Buah

Recent favourite person.

1. Mr. Ed
2. Indri
3. Tephi
4. Bu Suk

Part V

Kemaren jumat baru nonton dvd Salt.

Basi banget gue.

Tapi bukan basi yang mao gue bahas sekarang.

Ada satu hal di film itu yang gue yakini benar.

Except the truth that Jolie is truly gorgeous.

Is that..

"Don't ever dare tryin' to play fire with a woman whose in love.

They can do anything to ruin your life."

They have the power to move a mountain that you can't ever imagine.

Ya iya laaa.

gila aja kali.

masa mesti dipaksa ga nangis ngeliat laki ndiri dbunuh depan mata looo n pretend nothing happened!

Good thing she killed all of her PMS brother.

Pasti besok pagi mata bengkak.

inget papaaaaa

kangen papaaaa

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banyak bgt penyesalan klo inget papa.

gue belom melakukan satu hal pun buat nyenengin papa.

sampe akhir hayatnya.

gue bahkan blom sempet bilang kalo gue sayang bgt ama papa.

gue tau gue tolol bgt.

waktu dia masih sehat dan ada disisi gue.

gue selalu nyia2in en ga menyadari klo suatu saat dia bakal tiada.

dan gue akan senyesel sekarang.

gue pernah berkata kasar sama dia

gue pernah diemin dia

gue pernah ga anggep dia ada

pernah males banget ngomong sama dia

pernah ga care sama dia padahal dia lagi sakit

pernah .....

bahkan waktu dikasih tau kalau dia uda ga ada aja gue ga nangis..

gue ga tau gue itu ga punya perasaan apa gimana.

anak macam apa sampe kek gitu.

pasti durhaka

pasti..

padahal waktu gue kecil dia selalu

bawain pulang makanan (bakmi goreng remaja/simpati/sinmoykong, martabak pecenongan, dll).

gue mau apa dibeliin (waktu kecil ya pasti minta na maenan).

kalo dimarahin ama mama pasti papa yang belain.

gue mewarisi nyaris 70% gen dia.

mata gue.

idung gue. (Ugh)

mulut gue.

rambut gue.

alis tebel .

kalo bantet sih emang kolaborasi bonyok.

Dan sekarang

gue kangen digendong ama dia.

meluk perutnya yang buncit.

liat dia pake baju putih kaos oblong tipis yang khas banget dipake sama encek2.

jem tangan nya uda sering gue cobain tapi kegedean.

sisirnya yang lengket gara2 minyak rambut.

telor arak kecap bikinan dia. 

pen parker yang selalu nemplok di saku kemejanya klo pegi2.

baju safari warna coklat mudanya yang pernah dia pake waktu ambil rapot gue pertama kali pas esempe satu. (i even didn't say thanks to him en ga pulang bareng dia, sedih banget menatap punggungnya pulang sendirian dari teras depan kelas 1C T.T kalo ada mesin waktu gue akan balik ke saat itu en langsung meluk dia dari belakang en said "daddy, i love u")

kalung rantai emas nya yang uda ga jaman banget sekarang.

En bau khas nya yang mirip kek gue kalo lagi apek.

walaupun dia ga bisa dibilang ayah yang teladan, bertanggung jawab dan suami yang baik.

tapi gue tetep sayang en cinta sama dia.

mau ada berapa banyak pun bapak baru yang bae banget muncul di idup gue, ga akan pena bisa gantiin posisi dia di hati gue.

mao dia sejelek apapun dia tetep ayah gue. (ini yang selalu diajarin mama)

walopun ga banyak kenangan mei sama papa.

sosok papa akan selalu ada di hati mei.

maapin mei kalo uda ngecewain papa.

mei pun uda maapin papa.

en i'll always pray for u.

may God accept u to stand along Him in the eternal happy life in heaven.

til i see u again there.

en we'll be reunited again :)

I hope we can be a family again in a better situation if there's another chance -MCD

Dicekokin Hani.

I’m a loner, I’m a loner. I’m a loner being sad at love, shedding tear at love. 

sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight. My heart hurts.
Oh no no no no no body knows, how I feel.
one two three four five six seven night, I’m cheering up myself passing many nights awake.

I’m a loner, I’m a loner. I’m a loner hurt by love and waiting for love.
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight, I want this to be a dream.
Oh no no no no no body knows, no body knows me.
one two three four five six seven night, I’m crying passing many nights awake.

I'm a loner - CnBlue

I Hate The Canadian.

Gue benci banget sama Bau Busuk (dibaca BeBe) sejak 07.11.10!

Pengen pake Iphone ajaaaaaaa..

I'm not an Autism and I don't live in cyberworld -MCD

Get on the good mood.

Entah kenapa..
Mood gue bagus banget hari ini.

Mulai dari jalan pagi yang selalu terasa kek lagi bikin video klip,
Kalo ditemani musik dari playlist gue.
Orang di jalan bingung kali ya liat ekspresi or gelagat2 gue yg ga biasa.
Tapi gue uda ACT senormal mungkin koq supaya ga kliatan lg nyanyi or menghayati lagu.
Or even pengen joged.
Can't help!
Kerja siang dan sore pun waktu terasa amat cepat berlalu.
Padahal biasa na nunggu jem 3 aja lama bgt.
Until tonite it feels so damn fabulous.
Chat ama teman2 pun terasa begitu menyenangkan!
Dunno why..
Dunno how..

En satu hal yang pasti juga..
Gue teramat sangat ketagihan nge-blog!

I keep on bloggin in and out of love with you

I never loved bloggin way that I love you

Alicia Keys - Fallin

You got me open and I
Keep blogging, keep keep blogging love
I keep blogging, I keep keep blogging love
Keep blogging, keep keep blogging love
You cut me open

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

P.S : Get well soon my dear princess Ida n also pray for Indonesia

Keep on blogging -MCD

Ex-man

Mungkin kau bukanlah jodohku
Bukan takdirku

Terus terang

Aku merindukanmu
Setengah mati merindu
Tiada henti merindukanmu
Masih hatiku untukmu

Setengah Mati - Judika

Dulu..

Sepenggal lirik lagu diatas mewakili keadaan gue banget.

But times do heal.

En it works on me.

But why..

Lately your pictures come flashin' again on my frame,

Although I already tried to lock you on a box so damn hard?

And the memories started to come up again..

You were my genie in the bottle.

You used to granted all my childish n silly wishes.

Whatever it was..

You never complained or tried to reject me.

Cause you know it'll only make me upset.

And now..

Everytime I have something I want in my mind,

The first sentence come up in my brain is

If you were here..

If you still here..

What if? What if?

I know this mortal is being very selfish.
And I'll always be.
But I DON'T expecting anything from this selfishness.
So don't worry.
I'll never regret it. For sure. Definitely.


I thank God I once ever had you in my life -MCD

Mie, fruits and spinach.

I learn from yesterday so that i won't disappointed again today..

I don't hate you. I don't blame you.

I just hate myself for hoping you'd do something that u don't wanna do. 

I know i'm a big independent girl now.

I'm not supposed to depend on others anymore.

So that's what i'm going to do from now on.

Don't blame me if this thing is outrages to you.

You just have to accept me for what i am.

Please forgive me for being like this.

I don't want to but you make me.


Love you the most mrs. Gong li -MCD

If hips don't lie, so do songs.

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts

I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track

Talk myself in, I talk myself out

I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it

I came up with a million excuses

I thought, I thought of every possibility

I might have to wait, I'll never give up

I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck

Wherever you are, whenever it's right

You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing

And, baby, your love is gonna change me

And I know that we can be so amazing

And being in your life is gonna change me

And now I can see every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out

You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out

And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet 

Haven't met you yet - Michael Buble

Yo, I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want,

So tell me what you want, what you really really want.

If you want my future forget my past,

If you wanna get with me better make it fast,

Now don't go wasting my precious time,

Get your act together we could be just fine.

If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends,

Make it last forever friendship never ends,

If you wanna be my lover, you have got to give,

Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is.

What do you think about that now you know how I feel,

Say you can handle my love are you for real,

I won't be hasty, I'll give you a try

If you really bug me then I'll say goodbye.

Wannabe - Spicegirls

I'm looking for a lover not a friend

Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to

I'm looking for someone who won't pretend

Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,

Someone who can keep me real and who knows always

Baby I like to have you in my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,

Wants to share, shows he cares

Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)

Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains

Someone who I can cry with through the night

Someone who I can trust who's hardest right

And appreciates that I'm there

Someone who listens

And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need? 

Is it you - Cassie