"It's okay to love someone who doesn't love you back,
as long as that person worthy to be loved,
as long as that person deserved to be loved."
Sophie - Clockwork Angel
Season's greetings
It's been a year already since my last christmas's greetings.
But not much changes that occur. Especially in me.
Sometimes i think i should live alone, away from all that i love.
For everybody's sake.
I ruin everything.
Hurt anyone.
Anyone i love.
I truly hate myself for being like this shit.
I'm not deserved and worthy enough to live, for my heart's a devilish thing.
If i had a chance to provide life to someone worthy enough, i wouldn't hesitate to give away mine.
But i don't regret having it, i just hate when i hurt everyone i love and seeing them cry because of me, it feels like..Hell.
I feel bad.
A real badass.
I can't forgive myself.I wanna say sorry.
But i'm afraid i'll drop my tears at once.I really should practice to say sorry a lot when i think i'm not wrong.
"Saying sorry doesn't always mean you're wrong, it just means you value the relationship more than your ego"
But hey,
this is christmas!
And i'm not here to make any of you feel sorry for me :)
Just asking for a pray from any of you for a better me, better personality.
So this is it..
M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S
May this christmas bring joys, hopes, and faith to all of you for God's love is infinite.
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