I didn't see any mistletoe.

Candles in the window,
shadows painting the ceiling,
gazing at the fire glow,
feeling that gingerbread feeling.
Precious moments,
special people,
happy faces,
I can see.

Somewhere in my mem'ry,
Christmas joys all around me,
living in my mem'ry,
all of the music,
all of the magic,
all of the fam'ly home here with me.

Somewhere in my memory - John William

This song was sung by the Saint Clara choir while im praying after communion on xmas eve mass. I think that was my greatest moment on xmas celebration. With my mom n sis by myside on the xmas eve. It such a perfect scene for me. And all i said in my prayer was "Thank God for giving me such a beautiful moment like this. I feel luckier more than any rich people in the world."

And having vanilla ice cream + caramel made it more perfect on the 25th.
Guess this year is my most beautiful christmas time ever.

Although its been said many times, many ways..

MERRY CHRISTMAS 

..to you..

Have myself a merry little christmas -MCD

AJOT part 2.

Day II : The Excitement

Bangun tidur ku terus potooooo!

Decoration at Starz Resto

Mejeng dulu

Totally love the sunheat

Minjem jempol na pa revian

USS entrance ticket

Mummy indoor rides na mantap!

Are u one of 'em?

With Woody

F for Facebook? lol

Sell live happily ever after potion?

Yang ini dijamin bakal bikin pria2 melotot

4D Shrek Castle

With Fiona & Ogre

Puss in boots e genit

Poto ma patung aja ngantri. Cih

Dare to come inside?

Gue yang hobbit or dia yang hagrid?

Seru bgt!

He's so damn cute & dance very funny!

Laku keras si Po. Ngantri e panjang.

Lunch place

Kejar daku Kau ku cipok

Diskriminasi banget neh cafe

Keren lohh. ga rugi nonton na (ya iy la gratis)

Today's Happiness:

1. Dibilang keliatan masih muda, masih kecil sama ci Lisa pas lunch ♥

2. Ci Lina bilang gue ambil poto na bagus mulu ♥

3. Mrs. Jenny said tonite i was "hao kan, ke ai" ♥

H+2 ga poto2 sama sekali hwhw..

Dulu pas di Changi mo balik ke indo, gue tweet "see you later SIN".
I guess it really came true n i indeed goin back here again.

The difference between my visit to Singapore this year n last year was that i texted the different person.


I never expect goin back to this country for the second time -MCD

The Sweetest Sin.

I can't get rid of our moment in my dream last nite from my mind.

It tasted gentle, courageous, and so manly.

Not to forget to mention as sweet as your lips.

Just like what i wanted for this christmas :)

Another planting ideas wouldn't be so bad i guess -MCD

Ketika kita harus memilih!

Dikirimin broadcast di BBM.

I think its a nice one.

Dibanding banyaknya BM laen yang ga penting --"

And here goes the story,

 
Seorang Dosen mengadakan suatu permainan kecil kepada mahasiswinya yang sudah berumah tangga.
"Mari Kita buat satu permainan, mohon satu orang bantu saya sebentar."
Kemudian salah satu mahasiswi berjalan menuju Papan Tulis.

DOSEN: Silahkan Tulis 10 nama yg paling dekat dengan anda pada papan Tulis.

Dalam sekejap sudah dituliskan semuanya oleh mahasiswi tersebut. Ada nama tetangganya, nama orang tuanya, kekasihnya, anaknya dan lain-lain.

Dosen: Sekarang silahkan Coret 2 nama yg menurut anda tidak penting.

Mahasiswi itu lalu mencoret nama tetangganya.

Dosen: Silahkan Coret 2 lagi!

Mahasiswi itu lalu mencoret nama teman2 kantornya.

Dosen: silahkan Coret 1 lagi!

Mahasiswi Itu mencoret lagi satu nama dari papan tulis dan seterusnya sampai tersisa 3 nama yaitu orang tuanya, suaminya, dan anaknya.

Suasana kelas hening... Mereka mengira semua sudah selesai dan tidak ada lagi yg harus d pilih.
Tiba tiba Dosen Berkata

Dosen: Silahkan Coret 1 lagi!

Mahasiswi itu perlahan mengambil pilihan yg amat sulit lalu dia mencoret nama orang tuanya secara perlahan.

Dosen: Silahkan Coret 1 lagi!

Hatinya menjadi bingung. Kemudian mengangkat kapur dan lambat laun mencoret nama anaknya. Dalam sekejap waktu mahasiswi itupun menangis.

Setelah suasana tenang sang Dosen bertanya kepada Mahasiswi itu. "Orang terkasihmu bukan orang tuamu dan anakmu? Orang tua yang membesarkan Anda, anak anda adalah anda yang melahirkan, sedang Suami itu bisa di cari lagi. Tapi mengapa anda berbalik memilih Suami anda sebagai orang yang paling sulit untuk dipisahkan?

Semua orang didalam kelas terpana dan menunggu apa jawaban dari Mahasiswi tersebut.

Lalu mahasiswi itu perlahan berkata, "Sesuai waktu yang berlalu, orang tua akan pergi dan meninggalkan saya, sedang anak jika sudah dewasa setelah itu menikah pasti meninggalkan saya juga, yang benar2 bisa menemani saya dalam hidup ini hanyalah suami saya."

Gue pun mungkin akan melakukan hal yang sama klo gue ada di posisi tuh mahasiswi.

Emang betul suatu saat Orang tua akan meninggal dunia.
Tapi selama mereka masih ada,
Gue akan melakukan yang terbaik untuk mereka.

Tapi klo menyangkut posisi siapa yang terpenting di hati gue.

Itu ga perlu ditanya en diragukan lagi :)

Will dedicated my life for you my future husband -MCD

A Journey Of Tinkerbell.

Duh..

Uda lama ga goblog, eh.. nge-blog.

Faktor males iyaa.. ga sempet iyaa..

Lom ada bahan iyaa..

Inet di hum kek ee jg iyaa..

Hwhw

Maap ga disensor.

Gue mo berbagi skilas tentang Famtrip gue ke RWS.

Kenapa Tinkerbell?

Coz i'm alone this time.

Juz like Tinkerbell without Peterpan (bukan Peterporn ya)

This is the 1st time i do boarding all alone.

Dianterin ama NYOKAP (nyokap n apak) aja cuma ampe lobby Airport.
Itupun turun dari mobil langsung ditinggalin gitu aja ama koper.

Padahal gue ngarep ada cipika cipiki n big hug di Boarding Gate,

En gue melambai ke mreka layaknya Miss Universe.

Oke stop dreaming.

Straight to the topic.

Day I : THE UNBEATABLE ME.

Gue baru tau ya ternyata SJ itu biangnya ngaret.

Ngaretnya ga kira2 lagi.

Alhasil gue mesti cari2 kegiatan sampe take off.

So pasti gue nyasar ke toko buku. This time Periplus.

Liat bagian novel koq keknya vampire lg ngetrend bgt ya.

Vampire Academy, Vampire Diaries, bla bla bla bla...

 

En ada novel trilogi yang keknya bakal difilm-in (sotoy)

Bosen liat vampire en love, 

mampir ke majalah design interior, en photography magz.

Uda slesai, uda ngiterin satu toko buku, 

Mpe ga au mo liat apa lagi tapi masih lama take off nya --"

Isenk2 liat passport tnyata pas staon lalu gue ke destinasi yg sama

Lunch Sriwijaya not bad la..

Stelah perjuangan berat en berkali2 salah turun di MRT, 

Akhirnya sampe jg di reception hotel yg banyak cogan nya.

Masuk ke kamar gue langsung amazed n said "kyaa" kek di komik2.

My room! All by my own!

Ngeliat bed na yg begitu empuk n msh perawan amat sangat menggugah selera gue buat lompat n terjun kesitu.

Tp ga bisa! Karna gue uda telat en mesti buru2 ganti baju buat inspection!

The most lonely part of story four

Hey this is my Favorite Photo from this trip!

Idihh bling-bling bgt deh Swarovski.

My Shopping paradise

Berbanggalah yg namanya Michael

Eh si bapa nyadar kamera aja dehh.

Narsis saat inspection

Mikirin apa kamu tung?

Sucks ya neh aer mancur, masih bagusan GI.

Uda pa Revian ce Lina ga usa brantem.

Hot chocolate milk free at casino.. msh enakan milo y

Cute design of Hardrock Hotel

Lamborgini kuning ow ow ow

Epek sepatu baru : Lecet, nyeker.

Ga ada antrian panjang kek di Indo ya.

M for My name? Indeed!

m&m kuning! love u!

Today's sadness :
1. Dibilang umur 25 ama Melly T.T            
2. Diperiksa 2x pas masuk casino (emang gue tampang kriminal yak?)
3. Nitemare : sumthing bout UFO


That's a wrap for day I, Day II on progress :D


Show me the meaning of being lonely -MCD

Selamat pagi Abah.

Kangen keluarga Cemara.

Tapi..
Mami Diana = sibuk pacaran
Papi Hendra = sibuk kuliah
Ko Ahau = sibuk kerja

Koq kesannya cuma gue yang nganggur.com?
wkwk


Miss our movies and appetite -MCD

Je M'appelle Mery.

Eh..
Gue heran ye.
Kenapa semua orang sekarang manggil gue MEI?

Helloo..
I still love my real name laaa.
Mulai dari Ewin, Ka dew, Ajong, Ka yan sampe anak PKL ƪ(‾ε‾")ʃ
Smua bermula dari Mr. Ed.
Tapi cuma Koboy yang manggil gue "Swan, swan"
Hwhw..
I really like it. (ngarep jadi Mery Swan)
Sampe si Bubur yang tiba2 manggil gue MEI juga.
Janggal rasa e. Suer.

Kalo kayak Dju2, Ko Anton n Dennis dll kan emang wajar.
Karna mreka emang kenal gue dengan nama itu.
Tapi kalo yang kenal gue dengan nama Mery.
So be it laa.
Don't change change it to anything laa.
Kalo dimana mana liat nama gue meichandesu or mei something .
Oh come on..
It's just a nickname. Username.
Istilah artis nya "nama beken".

Mei is only used for certain people only laa.
Except i permitted you to call me that way.
Pengecualian juga buat yang close friends.
Like Oneng en ko Bob.
I like the way they call me "Me".
Still..
Somehow..
I miss the way people call me "Mery"
Mery = Merry = suka cita, senang, gembira, riang


Are we cool 'eh? -MCD

From Bem.

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, still I miss you somehow

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

From the bottom of my broken heart - Britney Spears

Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?

It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break

Saw you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah 

Better that we break - Maroon 5

The rain enters my eyes as I think of you

And it replaces the tears I have been holding in

I loved you ‘til madness and I was so very happy

The love memories given to me send you away

Goodbye my love love love

Take care my love love love

Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body

Now good bye good bye good bye

Leave me and please be happy

One step, one step, you’re going farther away

Silently I fill up a glass of alcohol

As I hardly hold it with my hands, i let out a sigh

I drink one glass

As I think of you

I also swallow the tears I have been holding in

Sarang sarang sarang - Ft Island

He's out of my life
He's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
He's out of my life

It's out of my hands
It's out of my hands
To think for two years he was here
Now the way that It stands
He's out of my hands

So I've learned that love's Not Possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now I've learned that love needs expression
But I learned too late

He's out of my life
He's out of my life
Damned Indecision and cursed pride
And it cuts like a knife
He's out of my life

 

She's out of my life -Josh Groban

Dedicated to my Red Knight about 4 months ago -MCD 

Mid Nov.

part I

I can't barely wait for my next portfolio!

This head is already full with kewl photographs!

Whether using the machine gun or the handgun.

I'm ready to make my shot!

So just be ready when the blood is gonna spoiled.

Part II

Gue akuin gue emang tomboy.

Yang menyanggah berarti blom kenal gue bener.

En saking tomboynya..

Gue ampe disuru "ACT LIKE A WOMAN" ama si Mr. Ed!

Ga nyangka..

ternyata selama ini tomboy gue menganggu dia ya.

LOL

Eh.. tomboy or childish nya ya?

Part III

It's ashamed to be admit.

I can't even ever imagine.

That i'm gonna be the loser this time.

Yea i'm lose.

Totally am the loser.

In this heart game.

Game of stealing.

U can smile. U can laugh.

U did it. U won this game.
U make my world upside down.

U'll walk away with pride.

I never have luck when it comes to the twins.

Even fell for the same hole twice.

Maybe it's my karm for my several winnings.

Lovefool. Fool me. Fool again.

Part IV

Recent favourite songs.

1. The christmas song - Charlotte Church

2. Have yourself a merry little christmas - Billy Gilman

3. You don't have to say you love me - Dusty Springfield

4. I have nothing - Whitney Houston

5. Yuki no hana - Mika Nakashima

6. I'll be home for christmas - Martina Mcbride

7. Hero - Mariah Carey

Recent favourite foods.

1. Choclair Cadbury

2. Sop Buah

Recent favourite person.

1. Mr. Ed
2. Indri
3. Tephi
4. Bu Suk

Part V

Kemaren jumat baru nonton dvd Salt.

Basi banget gue.

Tapi bukan basi yang mao gue bahas sekarang.

Ada satu hal di film itu yang gue yakini benar.

Except the truth that Jolie is truly gorgeous.

Is that..

"Don't ever dare tryin' to play fire with a woman whose in love.

They can do anything to ruin your life."

They have the power to move a mountain that you can't ever imagine.

Ya iya laaa.

gila aja kali.

masa mesti dipaksa ga nangis ngeliat laki ndiri dbunuh depan mata looo n pretend nothing happened!

Good thing she killed all of her PMS brother.

Pasti besok pagi mata bengkak.

inget papaaaaa

kangen papaaaa

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banyak bgt penyesalan klo inget papa.

gue belom melakukan satu hal pun buat nyenengin papa.

sampe akhir hayatnya.

gue bahkan blom sempet bilang kalo gue sayang bgt ama papa.

gue tau gue tolol bgt.

waktu dia masih sehat dan ada disisi gue.

gue selalu nyia2in en ga menyadari klo suatu saat dia bakal tiada.

dan gue akan senyesel sekarang.

gue pernah berkata kasar sama dia

gue pernah diemin dia

gue pernah ga anggep dia ada

pernah males banget ngomong sama dia

pernah ga care sama dia padahal dia lagi sakit

pernah .....

bahkan waktu dikasih tau kalau dia uda ga ada aja gue ga nangis..

gue ga tau gue itu ga punya perasaan apa gimana.

anak macam apa sampe kek gitu.

pasti durhaka

pasti..

padahal waktu gue kecil dia selalu

bawain pulang makanan (bakmi goreng remaja/simpati/sinmoykong, martabak pecenongan, dll).

gue mau apa dibeliin (waktu kecil ya pasti minta na maenan).

kalo dimarahin ama mama pasti papa yang belain.

gue mewarisi nyaris 70% gen dia.

mata gue.

idung gue. (Ugh)

mulut gue.

rambut gue.

alis tebel .

kalo bantet sih emang kolaborasi bonyok.

Dan sekarang

gue kangen digendong ama dia.

meluk perutnya yang buncit.

liat dia pake baju putih kaos oblong tipis yang khas banget dipake sama encek2.

jem tangan nya uda sering gue cobain tapi kegedean.

sisirnya yang lengket gara2 minyak rambut.

telor arak kecap bikinan dia. 

pen parker yang selalu nemplok di saku kemejanya klo pegi2.

baju safari warna coklat mudanya yang pernah dia pake waktu ambil rapot gue pertama kali pas esempe satu. (i even didn't say thanks to him en ga pulang bareng dia, sedih banget menatap punggungnya pulang sendirian dari teras depan kelas 1C T.T kalo ada mesin waktu gue akan balik ke saat itu en langsung meluk dia dari belakang en said "daddy, i love u")

kalung rantai emas nya yang uda ga jaman banget sekarang.

En bau khas nya yang mirip kek gue kalo lagi apek.

walaupun dia ga bisa dibilang ayah yang teladan, bertanggung jawab dan suami yang baik.

tapi gue tetep sayang en cinta sama dia.

mau ada berapa banyak pun bapak baru yang bae banget muncul di idup gue, ga akan pena bisa gantiin posisi dia di hati gue.

mao dia sejelek apapun dia tetep ayah gue. (ini yang selalu diajarin mama)

walopun ga banyak kenangan mei sama papa.

sosok papa akan selalu ada di hati mei.

maapin mei kalo uda ngecewain papa.

mei pun uda maapin papa.

en i'll always pray for u.

may God accept u to stand along Him in the eternal happy life in heaven.

til i see u again there.

en we'll be reunited again :)

I hope we can be a family again in a better situation if there's another chance -MCD

Dicekokin Hani.

I’m a loner, I’m a loner. I’m a loner being sad at love, shedding tear at love. 

sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight. My heart hurts.
Oh no no no no no body knows, how I feel.
one two three four five six seven night, I’m cheering up myself passing many nights awake.

I’m a loner, I’m a loner. I’m a loner hurt by love and waiting for love.
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight, I want this to be a dream.
Oh no no no no no body knows, no body knows me.
one two three four five six seven night, I’m crying passing many nights awake.

I'm a loner - CnBlue